Lyrics

So I love Alanis Morissette. My friend Kate and I would sit in her room listening and singing to "Jagged Little Pill" for hours and hours when we were in high school (before we could drive of course). We liked other music too, but that seemed to be a favorite for a long time.

While everyone else is freaking out about the new Cold Play CD (which is awesome), I am enjoying the fantastic new Alanis CD.

The lyrics of one song in particular resonate with me, especially at this time in my life. It's called Incomplete. The melody is so amazing.

Check it out...

"Incomplete"

One day I'll find relief
I'll be arrived
And I'll be friend to my friends who know how to be friends

One day I'll be at peace
I'll be enlightened and I'll be married with children and maybe adopt

One day I will be healed
I will gather my wounds forge the end of tragic comedy

I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time of being forever incomplete

One day my mind will retreat
And I'll know God
And I'll be constantly one with her night dusk and day
One day I'll be secureLike the women I see on their thirtieth anniversaries

I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time of being forever incomplete

Ever unfolding
Ever expanding
Ever adventurous
And torturous
And never done

One day I will speak freely
I'll be less afraid
And measured outside of my poems and lyrics and art
One day I will be faith-filledI'll be trusting and spacious authentic and grounded and home

I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time of being forever incomplete

Friends...

How cool is it to watch two friends get to know one another, fall in love and get married. Even better when you get to be in the wedding!

Two of my friends got married this weekend.

I knew him first, and got to know her as time went on. It was really cool to develop and grow a relationship with each of them.

I am so thankful to have been a part of their lives over the last several years, and now to have been able to share in their wedding day.

The above picture is our bible study, only missing one who was out of town.

To choose what is difficult all one's days, as if it were easy, that is faith.

This is a quote by W.H. Auden. I don't know very much about him, except that he was a poet. Seems to me he was rather brilliant to have articulated such a common human struggle so well.

Everytime I read this, I think about the situations in my life that I haven't dealt with properly. Or, the situations that I am currently dealing with improperly.

It's sort of my new standard.

By asking myself if I am doing the right thing or the easy thing, I can identify where I've gone astray. Sometimes the damage is done, but other times, I realize just in time.

What I want to be when I grow up...

There are several avenues I'd like to explore. I'd like to be an Event Planner. I'd also like to own a restaurant. Sometimes I want to go to grad school to become a counselor. About a year ago I considered going to nursing school. If I didn't have debt, I might go teach in another country. Other times I want to go work for some cool non-profit.

Do I even want to live in Denver? I miss the ocean.

Am I in the right occupation now...kind of doubt it actually. How do you know what job fits you best or do just know that something isn't right?

I know a couple things about myself and the type of career I'd like to have without knowing the specific field.

1. I hate to be micro-managed. I feel controlled and childish when this happens. The motivation for a job diminishes greatly if I feel like someone is watching my every move.

2. I like to be busy all the time. Fast paced is good. It keeps me focused, on task... and the time flies. My favorite days are when I have trainings and meetings scheduled back to back to back.

3. I like to be customer facing. I'm good with building relationships and articulating.

4. I like to be an expert at whatever I am doing. If I feel ill-equipped, I feel inadequate, which then leads to a feeling of failure.

I need answers. Those are my must haves. Help.